I am learning that having a diagnosis of breast cancer comes with lots of unknowns
It's a bit like being told you are getting to go on a trip, but no one's telling you exactly where, what to bring or what you will actually be doing there! And by the way, we may decide to change destination! As an itinerant traveler who loves an adventure, mostly I have framed this whole experience as such.
Written by Amy Rothenberg, ND, AANP Board Member
Originally published at dramyrothenberg.blogspot.com
Because I am healthy and robust and have a few pounds I can spare (not THAT many!), I will be using a modified fasting protocol in the days leading up to chemo & right after. Our normal cells are quite adaptive to such changes, whereas cancer cells, if there are any floating about, are not. They are not adaptive to either starvation or chemo, so this is a way to hit cancer cells from two sides. I am using a protocol that is currently being utilized in a number of trials. I had an inside line to the people running the trial (thank you Rena!) and have my kits stacked up and ready to go. Think here: a few granola type bars, a small bag of kale chips and two packets of dehydrated soups spread through the day. Sticking to my travel theme, I have reframed this into my own personal camping trip, only with a better mattress!
So as I said before, we are planning the dive & will dive the plan and will accept the unknowable aspects as best we can. I will lean on all my tools of mindfulness, prayer, visualizations, being open to love and +++ thoughts from all of you and my highly developed skill as a superior napper, as I begin this next phase in earnest.
Having my grown daughter Sophie home has been a tremendous gift to me on every possible level. My steadfast husband, Paul blows me away with his ability to parse out information, do research and be rational while at the same time be deeply loving, caring, and funny. God, I owe him big time. My sons, Misha and Jonah are good about checking in and the newsiness from their lives they share so openly, both perfect distraction. I feel like every ounce of energy, time and creativity I poured into being a mother and nurturing this family is coming back to me in spades. How blessed I truly am.
In other good news, I found a super cute wig, the no silvery gray streaks is kind of fun, I can now see why some people choose to dye their hair! As soon as I put it on Paul said, "Ohmigod -you exactly how you looked when you gave the speech at your college graduation in 1982." I'm telling you, people can really pour on the bull$%^&* !
For those who still have energy to send prayers and good thoughts my way, here's the request: "May Amy tolerate treatments well and return to vibrant health."
I hope all is good in your lives and that the oncoming warmer and longer days will bring with it all the promise of spring.
Love & light,
Shortie haircut before the chemo buzz-cut -not bad!